July 28, 2014
The other day I crossed the aisle of Target, distracted by something shiny and pretty. You know the feeling. Unknowingly, I stepped in front of a fellow shopper, going straight with purpose, and me, momentarily cutting him off at the pass. He huffed a bit and I apologized, not thinking much of it since I didn’t really slow him down any, nor did I bump into him. My apology only seemed to aggravate him more, his huffs turning to loud sighs, to which I replied something slightly sarcastic like “didn’t know you were in such a hurry.” He kept walking and yelled back at me, “didn’t know you were retarded.”
I stood there in front of the candles and stationary, in total shock, that a grown man, as “normal” as they come, would call someone retarded in broad daylight, in the middle of Target. I don’t know why it made me think of the internet, but I saw with instant clarity how people could be so awful online, seeing as how we could be in real life, face to face. Then that made me think about how easy it is for us all to get so worked up on a daily basis about stuff, because we have so much information coming at us every day from differing points of view, half of which could make us seething mad. I spent a good portion of early mornings during our vacation, waking up before everyone else, reading updates and articles about what’s going on in Gaza, and reading the comments. I don’t know why I do that, read the comments, but it always sucks me in and makes me sad how different we all see things.
I read a quote from Judd Apatow on my Chipotle bag today which made a lot of sense, and got me out of my funk a bit today. It said “Don’t be a jerk. Try to love everyone. Give more than you take. And do it despite the fact that you only really like about seven out of 500 people.” Why are we such jerks to each other? I’m feeling really conflicted today posting about food or clothes or even my family vacation I was fortunate to take. There’s so much to talk about, but I really just want to stay quiet. I’ve lost my words it seems.
I will hopefully be back tomorrow, a little more rested and a little less bleak.